This will be brief...for once!

It's been a while since I have last wrote on here, and though I could say a lot, just know that life is treating me well. There has been a few obstacles and struggles, but always conquering those things in the end. I thank God everyday for allowing me and my loved ones to see a NEW day.  I often realize how God could have EASILY taken me out of this world, many... MANY times ago, but because of his grace and mercy, he has continued my physical, spiritual, and mental mere being to stay here on Earth. As a result, it is my personal thrive to do the best and most that I can, while making the best out of EVERY situation that I may encounter and bring a few smiles and along the way.

Ultimately, the less I allow you guys to know, the more happier I become. LOL. That's the truth.

Sorry people, but No gossip here. No rants. No bitterness.

Just me being me, full of love, new futures, new relationships, new dreams, and continued goals of future success in all that I put my mind to.

Love,

10a.

P.S. I cut my hair off and I'm something cute.  (So what if I'm conceited. I gotta reason!)

*Change is a part of life. Believe in your heart that something very wonderful is about to happen.*

Just because no one has been fortunate enough to realize what a gold mine you are, doesn't mean you shine any less. Just because no one has been smart enough to figure out that you can't be topped, doesn't stop you from being the best. Just because no one has come along to share your life, Doesn't mean that day isn't coming. Just because no one has made this race worthwhile, doesn't give you permission to stop running. Just because no one has realized how much of an awesome woman you are, doesn't mean they can affect your femininity. Just because no one has shown up who can love you on your level, doesn't mean you have to sink to theirs. Just because you deserve the very best there is, doesn't mean that life is always fair. Just because God is still preparing your king,doesn't mean that you're not already a Queen. Just because your situation doesn't seem to be progressing right now, doesn't mean you need to change a thing. Keep shining, keep running, keep hoping, and keep praying, keep being exactly what you are already. COMPLETE!! *Thanks Ty*.

UPDATE!!!!

Ok, so in the midst of a free few moment in time, I would like to express my thoughts on just a few things. So no one will assume that I am talking about them, i'm keeping this post in black and white. LOL. I title this, "I am convinced..."

DISCLAIMER: If you THINK i'm talking about you, I probably am! LOL. If I'm speaking lies, then call me out on it. If not....shall I proceed? Yes, indeed! 

I AM CONVINCED that LOVE is blind and I warn all not to be blinded by the stupidity, immaturity, and pain, that at times, it can bring. So many people around me are being VICTIMS of love. When is it time to move on? When you see that your significant other, as well as everyone else, is playing you like the fool? When you catch members of the opposite sex in their room or having/flashing things that they own? When you officially have a replacement because maybe you just weren't good enough? When you cried too many tears, as they cried none? When you can't deal with no more arguments, being ignored, or disrespected for just being you? When your significant other even tells you that it's not working, but yet you stay? When is enough, really enough? Don't stay involved with love out of habit, comfort, MONEY, KIDS, etc. If you feel like you can't live without them, there's a problem. Maybe the person to blame isn't them, but really....you, for sticking around stupidity....yet, some call it love???

I am convinced that if you're not over someone. Just say it. Don't lie about it. Your actions always show the truths of the heart. Pain is inevitable.

I am convinced that you can't teach an old dog new tricks. 

I am convinced that I am not a broken record. I don't like repeating myself. If you don't get it the first time, it's a wrap!

I am convinced that you think I don't know. But if only you knew how MUCH I knew.

I am convinced that I know everyone's business. NOT BY CHOICE!LOL.

I am convinced that sometimes being a friend just isn't enough. People are going to do what they want to do, regardless if the TRUTH is told or not. Some people would love to have the type of friends like me . Appreciate that. Respect that. I'm gonna tell you the truth...if you want something FAKE, that isn't me. NOT sorry!

I am convinced that some people are selfish and inconsiderate, regardless of how much you may love them. If you make plans with your friends, stick to them. If you they want you to hang out with them and you really have no obligations to why you can't, do so. You never know when they may be gone. And especially don't cancel plans with friends, especially for the opposite sex. The phrase "men/women come and go, but friends are forever", really means something. Think about it!

I am convinced that people don't care if you're in a relationship with someone else. If somebody wants you...boy, they will do ANYTHING to get you. Only the weak fall. Temptation is a bytch and some people got skills. Women and men, watch your mates! Committment means NOTHING these days! (Partly joking, mostly, telling the truth.)

I am convinced that I have a heart of gold. When others feel like giving up on you or talking shyt about you, who's there in the end, on your side, trying to see you through? Who's there giving you the benefit of the doubt? Who's there trying to make you look good even if your actions are bad? Who's there willing to do whatever it takes to make you happy. Without EVER asking for one cent in return. Yes sir, I'm good people.

I am convinced that some people are really stuck on themselves. You're really not all what you make yourself out to be. But if you don't have confidence for YOU, who will.

I am convinced that girls who call themselves crazy, really are crazy. Now if only they would realize, that *ish isn't cute!

I am convinced that I am gaining weight and getting thick in the thighs. LOL.

I am EVEN MORE convinced that all these females ALWAYS talking about how skinny and sickly-looking I am, really just wanna look like me! I can wear whatever I want! (or nothing at all) Ha! I am PROUD to be a SIZE SMALL with curves! LOL.

I am convinced that I have a crush @ UNCG! I have been crushin' this guy since I came in as a freshman, and as a senior...he's still so fly to me! Who would've ever thought...Shenita 10a with a crush. Yikes! (& no, i'm not telling this one!)

I am convinced that we don't realize a good thing until its gone, even when it's standing in front of our eyes, even more when at one point, we had them!

I am convinced that downtown Greensboro is really trying to become like the strips at South Beach. LOL!

I am convinced that I have the best friends ever....special shout outs to Jachelle, Ranada, Shanell, Tia, and Tyson. To the REST of my future 25 bridesmaids/groomsmen (hope my future husband doesn't mind my guy friends being part of his groomsmen...lol), I love you ALL too. (I hope no one is wondering who these people are, because I want them to know! If not...maybe I'm not being the best friend I can be either. Yikes times two.)

I am convinced that I love my ls, Samantha. Thanks for visiting me yesterday.

I am convinced that I miss Omega Nu and that is the one thing that can instantly make me cry these days.

I am convinced that I must be cute or the summer time just brings guys like flies....yeah, i'm just cute! LOL.

I am convinced that I finally know my goals post-college. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Africa here I come!!!!!!!!!

I am convinced that no matter how much I work, I'm gonna feel like I don't have enough, yet everything I need is in the palm of my hands.

I am convinced that I am one unique individual, who likes my own cup of tea, enjoys being in her own company, has her own dance *wink*, her own self-love group on Facebook , often feels like I need no one other than myself, that many will never understand or get close enough to even try, and that one day I will be living on top of the world paying off everyone's debts, like Oprah, because i'm so rich, so we all can live in perfect peace and harmony................at least in my dreams. LOL.

I am convinced that I am going to be a celebrity, whether to the world or to one person.

I am convinced that it is time to take out these braids and embrace a new physical change....how short? Any at all? What color? My creative juices are flowing!!! *I am not my hair*.

I am convinced that I am me. Totally, faithfully, and completely. All day, everyday. Rain or shine. Rich or poor. Love me or hate me.

TRUTH. 10a, signing out. BIG KISS to the world!

picture perfect of tia (on the left...hey tia!) and me (on the right...hey me!)

Random Summer Thoughts...

Hmmmmmmm.........Summer is here.

Just some random thoughts:

*Why is it that you are a compulsive, habitual, liar? Everyday I try to figure out why, as others do also, but things just NEVER make sense with u! Is it possible to lie about pratically EVERYTHING? SIGGHHH....yet, I will ALWAYS be there. ~*~Prayer changes things.~*~

*Could this be real? Could this be true? I was three seconds short from being with you. Love has shown its face again. This time, what will change?

*Being a grown-up is no joke.

*Ranada, where are u?!

*I need for someone to have a get together, social gathering, party, etc and invite me to it. I need to have fun. I need another break. (& yes, I might just respond to the invite.)

*Am I really that M.I.A. this summer or do people exaggerate?

*Victoria's Semi-Annual Sale treated me good.

*Cinnabon treated me greater.

*I can't wait tilllllll next weekend! Gettin' some lovin'!

*Why is everyone so full of drama these days? Life is short. Like Alicia said, a lot of things, really isn't that serious!

*I am getting older. Childish ways have ceased. Can you say the same?

*Whatever happened to the Alphas at NC State resceduling their party? Can't believe we rode all the way there for it be cancelled. WHACKness.

*Yes, I'm in second session too.

*Don't be fooled by love. Don't be a fool to let a good love go. If you're lucky you get chance number 2, but usually, you're not.

*Am I really ready to throw away the "single" title??? Spooky thought.

*My neice is coming this weekend. My sister is coming after July 4th and I'm the proud new aunt-to-be again and am excited to plan her baby shower! I can't wait to see Brooklyn Jessica enter the world. *tear*...but in the meantime, I will continue to enjoy my only neice, Jada Michelle!

~*~Prayer changes EVERYTHING.~*~

Love ya,

10a.

Life...

Well, I am back from visiting one of my bestest (& Jastin, lol) and I had a BALL! I'm glad I conqered some of my fears and just left like the wind. My parents couldn't tell me enough about how I shouldn't have went by myself, but I'm 22 years old and gotta live my life for me. I prayed all the way there and back for God to let me travel safely, and he did, so that's that. As I continue to explore what this life has to offer, I am constantly reminded how much my time to leave Greensboro is quickly approaching. This place just isn't for me. I wish I knew someone who lived in California so I could make my way out there. But yeah, loved every minute of it and I will be visiting again soon Jachelle.

BTW Angela, I wasn't speeding...just...staying with the wind. LOL.

I heard there were some borderline grimey things going on here while I was gone, which is why I need to make it more of a habit to leave this place. All I can say is your true friends won't hurt you and if something seems shaky, it probably is. Whatever is done in the dark, will come to light, when least expected. Gotta watch your back these days, cause you never know who may be out to get you! In any case, I'm glad to know who my true friends are, and to ALL of you, 10a loves you! I know I've been ghost, but I'm doing well. I'm actually going to be social tomorrow night and go bowling....go figure! MUAH MUAH MUAH!

Ok....soooooooooooooo I feel really good about myself right now because I drove all the way to Alexandria, Virginia all by myself. I have never traveled long distance before so this was a BIG thing for me! Some people said it would take me 5 hrs, but ummmm yes sir...I got there in 3 and a half! Now what, son!!! (LOL, coming from me!) Thanks to OSL for looking out for me and making sure I traveled safely, especially to my new lil brother, Wesley Parker. But yes, I went to surprise one of my bestest, Miss Jachelle Batts and we will have the time of our lives! I'm really sad that I have to come back sooner than planned, but now that I know my way, this is not the last time I'll be here! Tomorrow she is taking me to DC, so I'm pretty excited about that. I really needed a break from whack Greensboro, so I am thankful that her mom opened up her doors to me, and let me come. To anyone else who lives outside of Greensboro, please invite me so I can make another weekend road trip. It's on and poppin' now. Every weekend, new destination....if money is applicable, that it. LOL. Charlotte is next on the list so I can visit quite a few people...so Kirk, Kyla, Kev, and David...you'll be seeing me soon...eventhough I have to make a separate trip for someone extra special. *wink*....So anywho, it's late. Just wanted to share my weekend adventures. Pray that I have safe travels as I return and that God will continue to hold me beneath his wings...as I am for all of you.

10a loves u.